Thursday, 27 June 2013

Dear Owl, Im at work.

Dear Owls, 

So i'm at the office with dad and i have my ow cubicle! Sounds cool? Good. That's as cool as it gets. I've literally got nothing to do and i'm bored as ever, but i'm catching up on my reading, so that's a good thing! So, 100 movies and 10 books. 
We thought you were reading 30 books (whoever 'we' is) 
But no, sadly i've come to a conclusion that being lazy is way better than being stressed. 10 books is great too. It gives me enough time to deal with everything else. Like what? Oh you know... 
Teenage problems. 

I must go to laser tag soon, what else can i do in Dubai? Hmm... maybe i'll take Waz to a movie, or Magic Planet. Thing is, we always end up fighting. Guess i'll just stick to playing Call Of Duty with him, it's Black Ops 2, if anyway cares.
It's really funny how this summer is even more boring than i thought it would be; i wouldn't go back to school though. Gosh, hell just follows you around everywhere doesn't it?
Well, let's see how all this turns out then, shall we?

Yours with a boredom strike,

Tuesday, 18 June 2013

Dear Owls, first review!

Dear Owls, 

Just wrote my first review about a movie called 500 days of summer  and i never knew writing a movie review actually took time and research. 
Hope you can read it, i've linked my movie and book review blogs to the left margin of the page under the name Summer Reviews, ironic right?
Here's a link, just in case :) 

Monday, 17 June 2013

Dear Owls, 2 days to graduate.

Dear Owls,

So, I've got 2 days to graduate and and my birthday plans are all going haywire. I have no idea what I'm going to do, but i guess this is the exact definition of winging it. Right now, I'm at a mall watching Waz grudge on mother for bringing him here. It's funny watching your family members turn on each other; well i feel so.

If i have to mention, i'm the one on the left.

Now, back to another issue, job hunting hasn't been so bad. Next month, i start a membership in The Old Library, down in Mall Of The Emirates; gorgeous place with an awesome membership for 250/- a full year. I totally recommend it for any bookworms out there. All credit goes to Dumbo, my Dells, for telling me all about it and got me to fall in love with it in the first place!
Also, hopefully if i get the chance, i'l to go to laser tag with Waz. He's been obsessed with the idea of shooting people all month and this summer, i shall help him with it; definitely going to post a photo about laser tag once we get there.

Summer Plans:

  • Books.
Want a good laugh? I also plan on reading 30 books, this includes my other plans of working with daddy dearest a long 8 hour shift; not to mention, oh but i will, my plans with Waz and Kiwi. Gosh, i don't even know how this is going to stitch itself together but i hope it does. Some people might think summer is just a resting time and piling a bunch of things to do is just stupid, but it's not. Everything i wanted to do this whole year, i can have time for again; eliminating all possible distractions. So now that we're on the same page, if you have any intriguing books you think i might fancy, comment below or send me a message on, tumblr, twitter... wow.

  • Movies
Now, i think we all know this will come naturally, but i do have a target to set on movies. I'd like to, and hopefully will try to, watch 100 movies, and... listen to this. I'm going to write a review on each one, doubtful, but i'll try my best. I'll link my blogs for my book and movie reviews to this blog. Hope this all goes well!

  • Places
Since i'm not traveling, this will probably be the hardest target of all. I, with God's help, will have to visit 10 new places; this includes malls, parks, amusement parks, zoos etc...

Really, this should be fun.
 Oh and for the record, yesterday i tried on around 14 dresses. If i went on, i would've made a sequel to "27 dresses" except that was a romantic comedy and mine would be a horror genre directed by the director of Chucky. (dead serious. no pun intended.)

Wish me luck.

Thursday, 13 June 2013

Dear Owls, Finally.

Dear Owls, 

After a whole summer of looking for a job, i finally found one. It's an awesome place where i had to take care of kids with a great pay. 
Of course, i couldn't get it because of people disapproving of the idea. I was very disappointed for a good 3 days, but that's not the point. The point is that i got a job and technically, they accepted me. I did fight for it, i was patient and i finally got it. It couldn't be better if i framed it in a picture. 

I'm not upset i didn't get it anymore, i've moved on from the idea. I have a friend that needs it more than i do anyway, and the point was never for the money. The point was always to prove a point. After 16 CVs sent, 24 emails (in the counting), 1 job interview (that failed) and 2 offers at volunteer places, i got a job that pays you to take care of kids!

My point is, never give up. Fight for what you want. Now, i bet you're wondering, "if the job is so great, why don't you just take it?" 
Well, i can't take it because it will upset my parents (especially my father) very much. He has his reasons and up until yesterday, i did not agree with him.
It's fine though, this isn't a Disney sitcom, this was me looking for a job everyone said i couldn't have and BOOM. 
Now, this job moves on to someone that needs it more than i do, and that feels good. Everybody wins. 

"So what are you doing this summer then?" 
Glad you asked, i'm not wasting it. I'm going to work with my father in his office. I know it sounds boring but i'm hoping it would give me some time to bond with him.
Lets see how all this is going to turn out... 

Yours always, 

Wednesday, 12 June 2013

Dear Owls, just keep swimming.

Dear Owls, 

When i first started this blog, i wanted to let it encourage me to do new things. I wanted it to make me feel like i'm a part of something bigger. In fact, it hasn't changed me at all. I feel just as defeated as i did yesterday or the day before. I know, if i get the chance, i can do something much greater than i, and others, allow me to do.

It doesn't make any sense how everybody is OKAY with the idea that they cannot make a difference. If you've got no restrictions, then do something! If you feel like you're nothing and you're reading this blog, i want you to know that, if you put your mind to it, nothing is impossible. 
I wanted, through this blog, to prove that to you. I'm currently unsuccessful, i've gotten at no progress from when i was looking for a job, or since i wanted to have an astral projection (flight in dream)
I thought those things would happen, but they didn't; not yet at least. 

When i started this blog, i made a promise to myself to never give up to "just keep swimming"
That's what i'm going to do. 
I hope it works. 
*sigh* i really hope it works. 

Yours truly with no idea what to do, 

Ps: Today was my last IGCSE and i'm glad, i was getting sick of them!

Monday, 10 June 2013

Dear Owls, i'm losing.

Dear Owls, 

I don't know if you've heard, but i'm loosing. I'm loosing hope in whatever i have left to believe in. 
As i said, job hunting isn't going so great, and every time i find something, it gets messed up. This very time, it didn't smash down because of my age, it was because of people around me not agreeing to the idea. I still do not know how to overcome this one, and i think i can't this time. This time, i'm loosing. 

I want to do so much, i want to contribute much more than what i'm giving now, but how can i if i'm restricted? I can't. 
I'm loosing my brain from how much thinking i have been doing about nothing. Yes, i'm thinking about nothing (as usual) 
Dubai in summer is going to be hot
And no, not supermeganfoxyawesome hot. i mean like heat, sweat, humid, smelly, sticky, ridiculous heat that'll eventually drive me crazy. Also, it'll probably give me enough nose bleeds to donate to the people in Africa.

Well, i'm off to study accounting. It's my last IGCSE and i hope it goes better than all that has been on. Hope i don't lose my marks too, or my grade. 
Enough is enough. 
(that was deep)

Yours with no finish line -get it, because i lost?

Wednesday, 5 June 2013

Dear Owls, someday.

Dear Owls, 

One day i'll be big, i'll be famous for all the right reasons. I'll travel the world and i'll have a gorgeous car- Porsche Cayenne of course- and i'll start a huge (and i mean Monster Inc. huge) company, that'll aim on the satisfaction of humans and not their leaders. One day, i'll become the face of people who were too neglected to have one. I'll make sure that everybody on this planet (the galaxy comes later) has a chance to shine; not TV shine, opportunity shine. 
Someday, one day, a day, the day i do this, you'll know. You'll know because you're the first one i'll run to. But, for now, i'm stuck here in this room where i sleep in, only to wake to the sound of my capture once more. 

After completing my IGCSEs, i realized i still have 2 more left to fret about. Which i shall fret about because i'm such a worry wort like that. 
Half the year is over and i'm still struggling between the differences between emails and texts. I do not understand when to use either, i'm socially awkward anyway. No one cares if i were to use any. 

Job hunt?
I'm still hunting, and i'm no road runner. Every time i feel i have a marble's chance of getting a job, i get declined the minute they see my age. 
Not. Fair. 
No offence intended, but i'm pretty sure i could do a better job at getting the job done if i were a few years younger. I'm not saying i want to manage a whole department, i just want the experience of a job. Ah, but no such luck. 
Not giving up though. If there's one thing this blog is giving  me, it's the perseverance of staying loyal to myself. 

Not quitting, not backing down. 

I actually watched a movie called "won't back down" the other day, it's a breathtaking movie, one like every other about schools that don't give the students the upper hand in school teaching and luxuries. The story line went smoothly, i especially loved the choice of actors and actresses; watch it and thank me, if anyone is actually reading my random thoughts of insanity. 

Well, before boredom strikes, i must continue to remind myself that one day, i'll get the satisfaction of having a longer CV; someday. 

Yours with a study frenzy, 
who else?

Monday, 3 June 2013

Dear Owls, give this advice to girls.

Dear Owls, 

Girls around me, or not, do not understand what it means to have faith; faith in themselves especially. They do not understand the significance of having a long talk with themselves about simple things. They do not understand what it means to have an actual conversation with their future and wonder if they'll ever get a response. 

I'm not trying to put them down. I am, after all, one of those girls. I'm still trying to understand, i'm still trying to grasp the idea of not having another chance at times. I can not tell you if tomorrow is going to be easier or if your life will have anymore importance than it does now. I can't predict anything. But i can give you this:
  • If someone lets you down, don't let them push you further. 
  • If your friend, or family member, is not your comfort anymore, stop leaning on them. 
  • When the time comes, you'll stop crying and you'll start reacting. Don't react badly with someone you love, you might lose them. 
  • If life gives you lemons, take it. Free stuff is cool. 
  • One day you'll feel so mad, you can't breathe. You'll start to wonder if anything is ever worth it. When that time comes, write a letter to someone you love, or even to yourself. Letters, in my personal experience, are the best way to get past lost words. 

Please tell every girl in the world that this gets better. Tell them that i may not know exactly what they're going through and if they're still reading, tell them that they're so so strong. Tell them they're gorgeous and brave, even if they don't feel that right now. I do. 

Ps: Owl if you're a girl. Then this letter may be for you too after all. If it's not, wait your turn, i'm writing a lengthy letter for your species (gender, if you must) too. 

Yours with open arms for a hug, 
Don't leave me hanging, 
C'mon hug me!
Be yourself, no matter how silly you may seem.
-A girl 

Sunday, 2 June 2013

Dear Owls, it's destiny.

Dear Owls, 

Beautiful people, amazing inspirations, jaw-dropping places and then there's me. I'm just there. I'm so much smaller than i put myself for. Nothing i do at this exact moment makes a difference. I'm just one more thing in this fixed, fastened world that continues to revolve even when i beg of it to stop.

So if i'm so insignificant, so petty, why am i here in the first place? Why didn't God just put the important people placed exactly where they should be? Why should we bump into things at unexpected times? Why can't life just be handed to us? Why can't i just meet someone, or something, and hear exactly what i should do with my life? Whether i like it or not, it's going to happen. I have no control of my destiny, it's going to happen, what should i do i about it?

Thinking about it, if everything was handed to me, i'd probably live in boredom of the monotonous events. I do however feel that, if i am living as a role, might as well make it a good one.

Ralph Waldo once said, "The only person you are destined to become is the person you decide to be."

And this scares me because, i have no idea what i'm going to "decide" to be. I can't even decide if i want a cheeseburger with ketchup or without... Wow, cheeseburgers. I need one of those; with or without ketchup.

I'll keep you updated on my long list of questions about life and what not. Until then, wish me luck on my wave of upcoming exams.

Yours with a doubtful smile,
Baby Yoshi Blinking