Dear Owl, clean up.

Dear Owl,

Listening to OneRepublic's new album, check it the hell out, it's by far the best album on earth. 

So summer's been pretty boring. I haven't been doing much... i'm pretty bummed because i wanted to travel and the parents won't allow it. God help me. 

The other day i went to IKEA and there's a certain type of format one should maintain at that place. (that place is my utopia so please have respect for everything i say afterwards) 

The format is as follows: 

1. You grab a trolley, even if you're not planning to buy anything, because let's face it, you will end up buying something. 
2. Make sure you enter every aisle and fantasize about the bedroom you could have. One you're done with bedrooms, you continue the fantasy with other rooms; kitchen, living room etc... 
3. You must sleep on at least 3 beds. Opportunity crises if you don't. 
4. Open all the cupboards. IKEA staff put very creative things in there. Well... mostly books and pillows, but curiosity kills so..?
5. Kid's section. Must i explain myself?
6. Go to the timers and set them all. Wait 5 minutes and watch the people around them freak!
7. Finally, seven is heaven. Go to the IKEA restaurant and have the most tranquil dining experience. You must of course get a desert meal and this MUST be the last thing you do. Once you're done, smile and wave boys, smile and wave. 
8. Don't forget to checkout the things you bought. You must grab any yummy snacks at the cash register. 

And that's exactly what i did the other day. 

If you've gone to IKEA before and done something different, you're wrong. Go back and repeat everything. However, if you don't live near an IKEA, i'm very very sorry. I'd suggest you go to another furniture shop and live the experience there. (you'll miss out on the food though, but it's still worth a shot)

Anyway Owl, i'll tell you more about this summer if anything comes up. For now though, that's all i got. 

With all my love, 

me. 

  

Dear Owls, this book!

Dear Owls, 

I've currently been handed a book on my birthday and needless to say, i've been completely hooked! I haven't put it down, it's even a hassle when i have to go to sleep but i urge myself another 5 minutes which end up keeping me till 3 or 4 am. This hook is reckless given that i have to work (for my father)the very next day at 8am! Today, for example, i woke at 9 dissolved into my bed, begging the universe another minute for rest my eyes. 

There's a metro that takes me to my dad's office, but there's a good 30 minute walk in between that distance and today i scurried from it. I begged my mother to take me with her and off we went. 

It was today that my sleep got the best of me and one of the employers caught me stealing a nap off my duty. She didn't report me or anything but we both know she was thinking it. 

I don't really like work very much. It's boring and not what i wanted in the first place. I wanted a place where i could interact with people, but lately it's just been the computer, the cubicle and moi all in one little office in the middle of Dubai. 

For all of you out there who actually give a shit about the book i'm totally in love with, it's 'The Fault in Our Stars' most of you just smiled, the others frowned thinking, not her  too. The thing is, this book got so much hype on Tumblr, i pleaded my heart i wouldn't have a liking towards it.

My theory on, 'everything that starts with a hype, end horribly wrong' is in fact false (just this time though) 

Once i'm done with the book, i'll most certainly post a review about it on:

owlsreviews.blogspot.ae

I hope this blog helps someone out one day. It sure did help me, in more ways i thought was possible. 

Until next time, 

owl's friend.

I'm just wondering here...

Dear Owls, Finally.

Dear Owls, 

After a whole summer of looking for a job, i finally found one. It's an awesome place where i had to take care of kids with a great pay. 

Of course, i couldn't get it because of people disapproving of the idea. I was very disappointed for a good 3 days, but that's not the point. The point is that i got a job and technically, they accepted me. I did fight for it, i was patient and i finally got it. It couldn't be better if i framed it in a picture. 

I'm not upset i didn't get it anymore, i've moved on from the idea. I have a friend that needs it more than i do anyway, and the point was never for the money. The point was always to prove a point. After 16 CVs sent, 24 emails (in the counting), 1 job interview (that failed) and 2 offers at volunteer places, i got a job that pays you to take care of kids!

My point is, never give up. Fight for what you want. Now, i bet you're wondering, "if the job is so great, why don't you just take it?" 

Well, i can't take it because it will upset my parents (especially my father) very much. He has his reasons and up until yesterday, i did not agree with him.

It's fine though, this isn't a Disney sitcom, this was me looking for a job everyone said i couldn't have and BOOM. 

Now, this job moves on to someone that needs it more than i do, and that feels good. Everybody wins. 

"So what are you doing this summer then?" 

Glad you asked, i'm not wasting it. I'm going to work with my father in his office. I know it sounds boring but i'm hoping it would give me some time to bond with him.

Lets see how all this is going to turn out... 

Yours always, 

me.

Dear Owls, just keep swimming.

Dear Owls, 

When i first started this blog, i wanted to let it encourage me to do new things. I wanted it to make me feel like i'm a part of something bigger. In fact, it hasn't changed me at all. I feel just as defeated as i did yesterday or the day before. I know, if i get the chance, i can do something much greater than i, and others, allow me to do.

It doesn't make any sense how everybody is OKAY with the idea that they cannot make a difference. If you've got no restrictions, then do something! If you feel like you're nothing and you're reading this blog, i want you to know that, if you put your mind to it, nothing is impossible. 

I wanted, through this blog, to prove that to you. I'm currently unsuccessful, i've gotten at no progress from when i was looking for a job, or since i wanted to have an astral projection (flight in dream)

I thought those things would happen, but they didn't; not yet at least. 

When i started this blog, i made a promise to myself to never give up to "just keep swimming"

That's what i'm going to do. 

I hope it works. 

*sigh* i really hope it works. 

Yours truly with no idea what to do, 

me. 

Ps: Today was my last IGCSE and i'm glad, i was getting sick of them!

Dear Owls, someday.

Dear Owls, 

One day i'll be big, i'll be famous for all the right reasons. I'll travel the world and i'll have a gorgeous car- Porsche Cayenne of course- and i'll start a huge (and i mean Monster Inc. huge) company, that'll aim on the satisfaction of humans and not their leaders. One day, i'll become the face of people who were too neglected to have one. I'll make sure that everybody on this planet (the galaxy comes later) has a chance to shine; not TV shine, opportunity shine. 

Someday, one day, a day, the day i do this, you'll know. You'll know because you're the first one i'll run to. But, for now, i'm stuck here in this room where i sleep in, only to wake to the sound of my capture once more. 

After completing my IGCSEs, i realized i still have 2 more left to fret about. Which i shall fret about because i'm such a worry wort like that. 

Half the year is over and i'm still struggling between the differences between emails and texts. I do not understand when to use either, i'm socially awkward anyway. No one cares if i were to use any. 

Job hunt?

I'm still hunting, and i'm no road runner. Every time i feel i have a marble's chance of getting a job, i get declined the minute they see my age. 

Not. Fair. 

No offence intended, but i'm pretty sure i could do a better job at getting the job done if i were a few years younger. I'm not saying i want to manage a whole department, i just want the experience of a job. Ah, but no such luck. 

Not giving up though. If there's one thing this blog is giving  me, it's the perseverance of staying loyal to myself. 

Not quitting, not backing down. 

I actually watched a movie called "won't back down" the other day, it's a breathtaking movie, one like every other about schools that don't give the students the upper hand in school teaching and luxuries. The story line went smoothly, i especially loved the choice of actors and actresses; watch it and thank me, if anyone is actually reading my random thoughts of insanity. 

Well, before boredom strikes, i must continue to remind myself that one day, i'll get the satisfaction of having a longer CV; someday. 

Yours with a study frenzy, 

who else?

Dear Owls, give this advice to girls.

Dear Owls, 

Girls around me, or not, do not understand what it means to have faith; faith in themselves especially. They do not understand the significance of having a long talk with themselves about simple things. They do not understand what it means to have an actual conversation with their future and wonder if they'll ever get a response. 

I'm not trying to put them down. I am, after all, one of those girls. I'm still trying to understand, i'm still trying to grasp the idea of not having another chance at times. I can not tell you if tomorrow is going to be easier or if your life will have anymore importance than it does now. I can't predict anything. But i can give you this:

• If someone lets you down, don't let them push you further. 
• If your friend, or family member, is not your comfort anymore, stop leaning on them. 
• When the time comes, you'll stop crying and you'll start reacting. Don't react badly with someone you love, you might lose them. 
• If life gives you lemons, take it. Free stuff is cool. 
• One day you'll feel so mad, you can't breathe. You'll start to wonder if anything is ever worth it. When that time comes, write a letter to someone you love, or even to yourself. Letters, in my personal experience, are the best way to get past lost words. 

Please tell every girl in the world that this gets better. Tell them that i may not know exactly what they're going through and if they're still reading, tell them that they're so so strong. Tell them they're gorgeous and brave, even if they don't feel that right now. I do. 

Ps: Owl if you're a girl. Then this letter may be for you too after all. If it's not, wait your turn, i'm writing a lengthy letter for your species (gender, if you must) too. 

Yours with open arms for a hug, 

Don't leave me hanging, 

C'mon hug me!

Me.

Be yourself, no matter how silly you may seem.
-A girl 

Dear Owls, wish me luck!

Dear Owls,

It's when life doesn't lay out a stop sign, you start to wonder if you've come across things you should have waited on; or for, depending on what that thing is. I delved into my bag the other day and found an old ticket to Life as we know it and smiled. I still remember going to that movie with my mother. I remember loving the fact that she was taking me with her, as i was still young. I remember smelling the buttery popcorn as it fell into a cup and was handed to us.

I'm glad i still remember. 

What i don't recall is how fast the time past since that memory. Since that time, Waz is in the 4th grade and Kiwi is born. Since that time, i did more IGCSE's than i can believe and i am about to graduate pretty soon. How mind blowing is that?

Going to keep it short today. Mind blown. Tough day, Waiting for many things, hope it all works out well. 

Ps: Next time you think of me, wish me luck, job hunting is worse than i thought it would be. 

Yours with a disappointed face, 

Moi

Dear Owls, I'm failing.

Dear Owls,

I'm up to here with the things I have to do. It's like the world has decided that I should not be able to live. (deep, I know.)

I pity myself not being able to express emotions like, "Hey there stranger, you're nice, want to be friends?."

Study petty things I will not look at when I'm older, look for a summer job I obviously will not get and Skype with the world's most amazing people and try to keep up (don't forget I need to remember to breathe. Oops) 

And now I'm doing nothing. 

Keeping aside my list of uncanny things, I'm totally fine. Just waiting for my IGCSE exams to finish, also, I desperately need a pie. We've got Gloria Jeans right next to us and I have no idea why i'm not there yet.

So, if you haven't taken a wild guess, i'm a student. This is my first serious blog and I have no idea where this is about to head off to.

Thank you for taking the time to read this, I appreciate your intense concentration in, what i thoroughly feel was, a waste of energy.  

Proceed at own risk.