Dear Owls, someday.

Dear Owls, 

One day i'll be big, i'll be famous for all the right reasons. I'll travel the world and i'll have a gorgeous car- Porsche Cayenne of course- and i'll start a huge (and i mean Monster Inc. huge) company, that'll aim on the satisfaction of humans and not their leaders. One day, i'll become the face of people who were too neglected to have one. I'll make sure that everybody on this planet (the galaxy comes later) has a chance to shine; not TV shine, opportunity shine. 

Someday, one day, a day, the day i do this, you'll know. You'll know because you're the first one i'll run to. But, for now, i'm stuck here in this room where i sleep in, only to wake to the sound of my capture once more. 

After completing my IGCSEs, i realized i still have 2 more left to fret about. Which i shall fret about because i'm such a worry wort like that. 

Half the year is over and i'm still struggling between the differences between emails and texts. I do not understand when to use either, i'm socially awkward anyway. No one cares if i were to use any. 

Job hunt?

I'm still hunting, and i'm no road runner. Every time i feel i have a marble's chance of getting a job, i get declined the minute they see my age. 

Not. Fair. 

No offence intended, but i'm pretty sure i could do a better job at getting the job done if i were a few years younger. I'm not saying i want to manage a whole department, i just want the experience of a job. Ah, but no such luck. 

Not giving up though. If there's one thing this blog is giving  me, it's the perseverance of staying loyal to myself. 

Not quitting, not backing down. 

I actually watched a movie called "won't back down" the other day, it's a breathtaking movie, one like every other about schools that don't give the students the upper hand in school teaching and luxuries. The story line went smoothly, i especially loved the choice of actors and actresses; watch it and thank me, if anyone is actually reading my random thoughts of insanity. 

Well, before boredom strikes, i must continue to remind myself that one day, i'll get the satisfaction of having a longer CV; someday. 

Yours with a study frenzy, 

who else?

Dear Owls, wake me up!

Dear Owls, 

After an awesome day with Chloe yesterday at Mirdif City Center, i was swamped. The first and only thing i came back home to do was SLEEP. After calling Chloe, i later found out that she had spent her evening the same way. Unlike her, i woke up rather early to the downloading of many many games. (and more to come if God gave me the energy and time)

After all that sleep, i came across an old obsession of mine and which will in a few minutes clarify to remain an obsession. 

Many obsessions ago, i fell in love with the concept of Lucid dreaming and began to slowly enter into that state. But, later i found out, i only enter that state of dreaming when i really need to.

By that i mean, if i were transported to a magical kingdom (i'm weird like that) and i could fly, having all my wishes come true, i would be fine and continue the dream as was meant to be. 

However, if that dream would have gone completely bogus and i turn senile, then i take control of a small part of the dream and turn things around. (eg: give myself an army, or a Hulk) Or simply wake myself up. 

Either way, i snap back to the fact that it is a dream.

This all sounds cool in theory, but when i look back, i want to know how all these dreams end. (really)

At this very moment, i would like to have a proper lucid dream at any point of time in my dream. I want to fly without having a ninja turtle coming to kick my ass. So, i have been reading a couple things and watching a few videos, and i am attempting a out of body experience today. 

While some people believe this to also be lucid dreaming, it is not. An out of body experience is not in the absolute manner a "dream". Rather an entering of one, or so i understood. 

There is a possible chance i enter a sleep paralysis and be stuck in a dreaming state; which i don't mind. I know this all sounds odd, but it's scientifically true. All of it. Except for the ninja turtle part, that's just rubbish.

So, here's the real question. 

Can i challenge my brain emotionally to this? There is a good chance if this works, like really works (which is 1% as this is my first try) will i be okay with the mental shock i'll have from the sleep paralysis? 

Eh, i'm all for the mental challenges, as long as there's no movement or physical action needed. 

*laziness award goes to me*

Well Owl, wish me luck on either an adventurous night, or just a restful boring sleep. 

I'm looking forward to either. 

Ps: If you are actually getting these letters on time, wake me up at 9 am tomorrow. I don't want to be late. (for nothing)

Yours with open eyes,

Moi.

I love you Chloe,
Dawashtini later darling!